Headache Go Away!!

For the past week I had a headache. Every day of the week for 7 days. The headache woke me up at 4:00 AM and I went back to sleep only to wake up again at 6:00 AM. I took a tylenol 3 and tried to sleep again. The pain was so bad that I couldn't. I went to work and the computer made everything worse. By 10:00 AM I asked if I could go home. I decided to go to a walk in clinic to see if they could give me something stronger and also to have some proof at work that I was not faking the pain. The doctor at the walk in clinic asked me to get a brain MRI and see a neurologist to check for an aneurysm. This just that sounded like a bad dream and I didn't believe it. I had the MRI the same day and I was told the results were normal. I made an appointement with a neurologist that I was referred to for the following week. I had a deadline at work in 3 days and I was concerned about getting back to finish this. The headache or migraine got better but it didn't go away.

I finally had my appointment with the neurologist on Monday. He diagnosed me with migraine and prescribed me  medication and asked me to return in one month. I never had migraines and I was not sure if what I had was a migraine. I was told that women "my age" get them for no clear reason. The neurologist said that most women that NEVER had a migraine problem start having it in their late 20's and early 30s. I felt sick after taking the medicine and I had to go home again. Now I am headache free and the statistics I read at the Doctor's office said that most migraine "attacks" only happen every 2 to 6 months. So if I can survive the next 4 month without a migraine I will blame it to the pre-wedding stress, if not then I really have migraines. I do not like to take time off to go home because I am sick. My vacation time is very valuable to spend it in bed!!! I refuse to be sick or to get sick again. I have come to work with strep throat, the flu, a cold, hangover, or jet-lagged just so that I do not spend a personal day at home.

Sometimes I hear a judgemental statement from someone that asks me very surprised WHY I am stressed. I try not to show that it upsets me, but every person has a different level of tolerance for problems. My life might be "normal" but there are situations that stress me. I like to keep a calm attitude even if I am going at 100 miles per hour inside. I do not like to show my feelings to the world. Only a few people get to know what really happens to me. I hate to be judged and I try not to judge, but I think this is probably one of people's favorite sports. Basically, if you don't have a terrible circumstance in your life you can not get stressed. I have always been impatient and probably that is the reason of my stress: lack of patient with day to day situations. I wish it was as easy as "just relaxing" and letting stress go. I can not pretend everything is OK when it is not OK and just relax. I do have a job that brings a lot of stress in my life, I never know when we will have a big deadline and have to stay overnight working and that stresses me a lot. I am a planner and when I can't plan because my work is unpredictable it makes me upset. I am also planning my wedding that it could be worse if I didn't have my mom as my official planner. Since I cant control much of what is going to happen until when I get there the week before, I just have to wait. I don't even know who will be going to the wedding because everybody has to travel but, I am not concerned of too many people showing up. At least not from the US because of the high price in plane tickets. The budget is driving me crazy and planning the honeymoon is the best part but not after we have to pay for the wedding just days before. I am not very good at saving and this is probably the time when I have to prove myself that I can save. Also, I am NOT relaxed about how I am going to look that day. I am very concerned about looking fat in a white dress and having terrible wedding pictures.

My diet efforts have paid off and I am 13 pounds lighter than when I started in January. This is only the weight that I gained when I moved with my boyfriend last summer and started eating ice cream every night. It is never good enough so I have a goal to lose at least 15 more in 3 months. I have a dress that will not need much alterations because it is not fitted below the ribs. I am doing spinning regularly and I hired my personal trainer from 4 years ago for a 30 minute session once a week to work out. I also bought a package that was featured in livingsocial that allows me to use a local gym that specializes in power plate. The package included 3 months membership and 3 personal training sessions. I also bought 10 classes to try the power plate group workouts. I've heard it is the best way to tone but it is very challenging. My only friends that have abs love using the power plate. The said it will take me at least one month to get used to it. I had a 30 minute session last Saturday and I was only able to do 20 minutes. I got very dizzy and my heart rate was so fast that I couldn't breathe. I thought it was because I still didn't feel 100% OK from the migraines not because I was weak. The workout feels hard not just in the muscles hurting, but the head vibrates and with the mild headache that I had that day it was not OK. I felt stronger and headache free on Wednesday, but I could only do it 20 minutes. I felt that my cardio was getting really good for all the spinning that I've been doing, but i was WRONG.  I have another PT session on the power plate next week and hopefully I can take the whole 30 minutes of the session. Otherwise I just wasted 3 paid PT sessions because I got dizzy. I still have the 10 classes to do that I don't really want to do. I would probably be the only person that has to stop before the class is over. I really hope this pays off because it is kicking my butt. I had a regular PT session today and it felt good. It was painful but the kind of pain that makes your muscles work. Too bad I had chinese food, dirt cake, and pizza today. I need to stop slacking with my diet I had the excuse that I was sick and needed some comfort food.